Michael Andrew,<3

you have my heart, totally and completely. everything in my life could be going horribly wrong, but as soon as you’re holding me, I can forget about it all for awhile. I have never known someone who cares so much about me, and would do literally anything for me. no matter what happens, I can’t ever let you go. you mean more to me than my own life. you’ve taught me that I actually am worth something. I know that I pushed you away, but you need to understand where I was coming from. having somebody love me as much as you do, scares the living fuck out of me. but even if we aren’t together, I love how we are right now. I know I can always count on you when I’m in dire need if someone to talk to, or someone to pull me out of a dark place. the way we are, is perfect enough for me. you’re giving up your dream of going into the army because you don’t want to leave me here for so long. but as much as it will rip me apart, I need you to follow your dreams and do what you’ve been wanting to do for years. I can’t be apart of the reason you don’t go, I can’t have you hold it against me in the future.

you mean so much to me, you don’t even understand. I would be completely lost if I didn’t have you in my life, right by my side through everything. I love you, please don’t ever forget that. you walked into my life without be even looking for you, and I want you to stay here forever. you’re everything I wish I could be like, and you’re the one who keeps my head on straight. you’re my best friend, my human diary. and the kisses I get from you, they’re just a major plus. (;